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Name: David
Country: United States
State: Colorado
Birthday: 11/17/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: sports (hockey and football), movies, music (jam bands), Judaism, American law, television (South Park, Simpsons), politics (Democrat all the way!), cars
Expertise: definitely sports, useless trivia, scooping ice cream, sleeping
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  hoosierdubsguy
Member Since:
5/29/2004
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| Last Thursday started off as a pretty innocuous day. I got up, pooped, brushed my teeth, put on my long underwear, and checked my Facebook, my half hour morning ritual before I catch the 7:25 bus up to the Mountain. I opened the page, and it told me I had a friend request. This was nothing new, of course, and I kinda figured it was someone from up here, most likely my friend Dan from Rec class, or maybe Nate from the Mountain, or perhaps the freshmen Taylor or Amanda. I clicked on the friend request with eager trepidation, and when the screen popped up, I think I may have screamed about as loud as I ever have in my life outside of a sports stadium....
"Katie O* has requested to add you as a friend on Facebook." 12 words that forever changed everything. Just reading the name sent chills of anticipation and affection. This was a name I hadn't heard in over a decade, since 1995, since before my family and I moved to Colorado. This was a name that made my heart flutter and my face blush as young as seven and eight years old. This was not just an ordinary person who I had met in passing locating me on Facebook. Nor was this a random request from the friend of a friend of a friend. This was, in a non-possessive sense, my Katie. This was my girl. This was my first crush, the first girl to ever tell me how much she liked me, the first girl I ever actually felt anything for. To use a really strained analogy, she was the Wendy Testaburger to my Stan Marsh. No, I never puked on her (that I remember) but the "childhood sweetheart" analogy still remains. We had little to nothing in common, yet we shared almost everything. To this day, I couldn't tell you what the two of us saw in each other, nor can I tell you how the two of us connected the way we did. It was almost as if it was cosmically meant to be, and that we were stuck in the wrong time or the wrong universe. I don't think I've ever accepted a Facebook friend so quickly, nor do I think I ever will.
As Thursday turned into Friday turned into Saturday, Katie began to get deeper and deeper into my head. It's no longer puppy love, or even necessarily a crush (as cute as she turned out, damn!!!!), I simply became wrapped up in the where's, what have you been's, why's, and what if's to think about anything else. What if I had stayed? Where you going to school? What have you been doing, eating, seeing, listening to, watching? Why now, me? All of it just ran back and forth through my head. I finally got the chance to speak to her online the other day, and when I did it was as if all those questions had melted away. I forgot everything I wanted to tell her and nearly everywhere I had been, and for the most blissful 45 minutes of my life, time seemed to stop and our conversation became an entire universe within itself. It was not quite as if I had never left and we had always been, but almost more as if the two of us were simply supposed to be. We traded kind words, sarcastic jokes, and funny life stories, and it clicked right away. It was almost as if the two of us fed off each other, and even though we still had nothing in common, we got each other. I've never quite had conversations with this same essence, an essence that's literally unexplainable. It was, dare I say, perfect...
I know there's a slim chance I'll ever actually see her again, so there's no sense in getting my hopes up or falling in love. Besides, I've kinda sworn off girls. Y'all are a strange and fickle species, no offense. But I can't stop running a new set of where's, what if's, would you's, and what's in my head. Where are you going in life? What if we saw each other again? Would you recognize me on the street, say hi to me? What would you say to me? What would I say to you? What would we do?
The next few days on my schedule are starting to look like that Thursday morning again, innocuous. But I think from here on out, every day that I am back in contact with Katie is going to be a good and exciting day. I've missed you Katie, it's nice to know you're still out there. | | |
| Okay, so it's only been six months, but I actually have a real place of my own! Of course, for those that don't know, that new place is not in Kansas at all, but in beautiful Gunnison, CO! I got into Western State, and that is where I'll be headed in the fall, yippee!! Anyway, starting on (or around, depending on when my family can help me get down to move my stuff in), you will all be able to find me at...
600 N. Main St.
Gunnison, CO 81230
Well, that's about all I have for now...I hope to see you all in The Valley! | | |
| Boredom prevails.Fill this out about your years in high school
1. Who was your best friend?
The Jew Crew! You guys know who you are...
2.What sports did you play?
rugby, one year
3. What kind of car did you drive?
either a 1995 Subaru Legacy Outback or a 1995 Geo Prizm LSI...yay Geo!
4. It's Friday night, where were you?
either the pool hall, or hanging out with Jewish people
5. Were you a party animal?
Not really
6. Were you considered a flirt?
only to girls who didn't go to my high school
7. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
nope
8. Were you a nerd?
Kinda...we all were, really
10. Can you sing the fight song?
We didn't have one, but I can sing Kansas's fight song... "cause I'm a Jay, Jay, Jay, Jay, Jayhawk up at Lawrence on the Kaw..."
11. Who were your favorite teachers?
Easy...Dr. Kelleher and J-Fo
12. Where did you sit during lunch?
at the local McDonalds or Tokyo Joe's or Wendy's....
13.What was your school's full name?
Cherry Creek High School (unfortunately)
14. School mascot?
Bruins
15. Did you go to Prom?
try four of them
16. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
Do Sawx fans like reliving the 86 years? Yeah, that answers that question
17. What do you remember most about graduation?
probably cracking jokes with Melissa and Kelley the entire time...
18. What was your favorite class?
English, history, French sometimes
19. Where were you on senior skip day?
At the mall maybe?
20. Were you in any clubs?.
ACLU, Bowling Club, Rugby, did newspaper for a little while...
21. Where did you go most often for lunch?
Big Mac Mondays at McDonalds, Fridays at Einstein's to meet the Overland crowd
23. What did you do after graduation?
celebrated like I should have gone to Disney World!
24. When did you graduate?
2004
25. Who was your Senior prom date?
Alyssa Glynn "Ally" Pregulman
26. Are you going to your 10 year reunion?
Not a chance in hell
27. Who was your home room teacher?
We didn't have homeroom
28. Who will repost this after you?
your mother
29. Who was your high school sweetheart?
Depended on the year...Ally, Becca, Lakewood Becca, Caitlin...
30. Do you still talk to people from high school?
Oh yeah...Carolan, Jordie, Martin, Becca, Alana, Melissa, Kelley, Eliot....
31. Are you where you'd thought you'd be in life?
Hell no! And I couldn't be happier
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1. If your doctor said you were pregnant, what would you do?
find a new doctor! or tell my non-existant girlfriend to stop peeing in cups for me
2. Do you trust all of your friends?
They wouldn't be my friend otherwise
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
no
4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes, fate doesn't exist
5. Name something you would NOT tolerate in a relationship.
A controlling bitch (sorry...), I need my independance, if I want to give it up, I'll tell you
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
How about Melissa Crawley and Becca, the two that are actually becoming doctors (kinda)
7. When was the last time you snuck out?
I didn't have to, my parents were cool with me going out anyway
8. Are you afraid of falling in love?
No. I don't believe in love anyway, so it's moot
9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
From time to time I guess...
10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new person?
Nope! Been there, done that, broke up with the girl
11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
This past November, to see my grandparents in Florida
12. What did the last text message you sent say?
"Holy shit! Craig's a married man! And to a girl!!!"
13. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
beautiful reflective blue eyes, pretty hair of any colour, nice titties...(sorry...)
14. Fill in the blank. I like _______.
"sex...it's nice! Make-a sexy time!"
17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding?
atop Vail Mountain at Twin Elks Lodge, on skis, followed by a drunken celebration and me taking my wife to the bridal suite
18. If you could say just one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
"You should never throw a bong kid...ever!"
19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended
period of time, name some people you would call?
Probably my doctor, my grandparents, and the funeral director to let him know not to bury me yet
20. How many kids do you want to have?
kids?
21. Would you make a good parent?
After my summer as a counselor, I doubt it, but we'll see
22. Where was your default pic taken?
When I was still a baby in Evansville, IN
23. What is your middle name?
Solomon
27. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now??
My neck hurts like a bitch, I can't see because I don't have my contacts in, and the last three mornings have been officially the most awkward of my life
28. Are you musical?
Sure, why not
29. If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
Something big...I'd like take out Lee Harvey Oswald or make the Blazers draft Jordan, something like that
31. What are you wearing right now?
KU mesh shorts, my Dish Network t-shirt, boxers
32. Righty or lefty:
Righty
33. Can you make a dollar in change right now:
No, but my car has change all the way in Forest Grove...and I spent all my singles the other night...
34. Best place to go for a date
Umm...Benihana?
35. Favorite jeans:
the denim ones
37. Favorite animal:
Cats, Iguanas
38. Favorite month:
March! NHL and NBA playoff races, spring training, and of course...MADNESS!!!!
39. Favorite juice:
OJ Simpson, of course
40. Have you had the chicken pox?:
Yes, I was 6. Got it literally during Batman Returns....
41. Have you had a sore throat?:
Umm....is the pope scary?
42. Have you had plastic surgery?
negative
43. Who knows you the best?
Easily Aaron, or maybe Jason and Carolan
45. Do you get along with your family?:
mostly
44. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
contacts
46. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
With Sam...awww, of course not!
47. Been to Mexico?:
not yet
49. Did you buy something today?
Not yet, it's still really early
50. Did you get sick today?
Just a sprig hungover, but not too bad
52. Do you miss someone today?:
sure
53. Did you get in a fight with someone today?:
not yet, but there might be one brewing later, I can feel it....
54. Did you have sex today?
I really don't want to talk about it...
55. Last person to sleep in your bed?:
Me
56. Last person to see you cry?
I think one of the bridesmaids at the wedding yesterday....
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| It's amazing how 24 hours can completely turn your life in the opposite direction.
24 hours ago, I was a Jayhawk, and proud of it. I came back to Denver feeling like I was coming off my best semester yet. I loved my classes and busted my ass during finals week, leaving me with near assurance that I'd be back in Lawrence. I had already enrolled in some classes this summer, and the classes I was really hoping to get next fall. I had also started preparing to move into my new place right behind the Crossing, the best location in town. Oh, and after the whole deal with finding a roommate, it was nice to know that I'd be living with an old friend. I came back to town and I could not have been more excited...
But then my grades started to post. I should have known something wasn't right when I passed history but my professor noted that I probably could have gotten about a letter grade or two higher. Maybe I didn't work as hard as I thought. I should have known something was up when I hit that bowl with a white lighter a few days ago, but nothing really registered in my mind, I'm not superstitious.
But something was indeed askew. When I got my film grade back, my heart felt empty. It was over. Three years, gone. Unless there's something of a passover-esque miracle now, I'm not going back. The midwest took me in like a hospitable house mom, and I ran out of it like a lazy and petulant child. Once things become official, I'm not going back to Kansas next year...
It feels weird to write and to say, really. My whole life was out there: my friends, my brothers, my teachers, everything. And now I don't know when and if I'll get to see any of them again. I don't know when and if I'll be back to my favourite place on earth.
But what's scarier is not knowing what comes next. So I'm out of school, what now? My parents have been more than supportive through this whole process, hell, they've even offered to let me live at home, or even try and get my life back in order elsewhere. But for now, I still have no idea. I really want to go back to school, but I don't even know what schools will accept me. I'm putting in applications at Western State in Gunnison, Ft. Lewis in Durango, and Southern Utah in Cedar City, but we'll see. This is a scary change, really. Going from having my life virtually laid out in front of me to now being almost completely alone and going to some completely new place. What do I do? Where can I go?
To all my friends, both Kansas and otherwise, I offer my sincerest apologies. I worked my ass off, and I still proved to fail you all. I failed those I promised to come and visit. I failed those who I promised I would return. I failed those of us who were all walking down that hill together. I failed you all. For that, I am sorry.
But you know what, looking on the bright side, things may turn out for the best. I may never be able to go see another basketball game at the Fieldhouse or enjoy another beer at the Wheel or go sit in Professor Levin's office for hours on end talking about Russian Jewish history, but maybe it was time for a change. I mean, my parents have been supportive, and I know a few of my friends around here have been more than a help. So we'll see, maybe things will turn out okay.
It's amazing what 24 hours can do. Goodbye Kansas, I will miss you. Rock Chalk Jayhawk KU!
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